Saturday, June 04, 2011
And what if I'm not here?What will happen?
I'm not set on going yet.
I'm ready to just.. stay on.
Running for a while to take a breather is good.
But it'll be pointless if i constantly worry about what's going to happen here.
Anyway, staying on for dragonboat would be good too.
I dont want to run away but i want to.
I dont want to stay but i need to.
There's always so many conflicting thoughts.
I'm so tired.
Can i dont think about all this now.
Can people just leave me alone?
Leave me be until i'm ready to make a decision.
I dont want to make any decisions yet.
Not yet, not now.
Not here, not there.
Waves and waves after waves of problems.
Why is it so hard just to enjoy peace?
Is this a test to let us understand what peace really is?
If yes then I believe i've learnt it well already.
Enough is enough.
I cant do this anymore.
Yet i can.
One day if i break down, what will happen?
I cant.
I wont.
I can still hang on.
Let's just wait until sept.
Am i a irresponsible self-centered selfish individual who knows only to think about myself?
if you cannot change sth, live with it.
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